Flipside

Hi

I'm Sin. That's not my real name, but it will do in this domain. Afterall anything is possible here. I can tell you that I'm rich and powerful, have you believe it, but in truth I might just be a homeless person spending few minutes each week updating this little online diary. Living out a fantasy. Or you might be telling me that and have me believe it. It might be true. Does it really matter? You won't know any better and neither will I. Most things taste better with a pinch of salt anyways.

What I write on this blog is only a piece of me. Indeed, I feel at times that I am two souls in the same body. Exact opposities fighting for space to breathe. Because art, creativity and chaos doesn't pay as well as logic, theory and structure, the scientific side of me gets more airing time in my daily routine of bringing home the bacon.

Unfortunately I have found that this imbalance has negative side-effects. I find myself struggling to cope with this twisting coil that slowly suffocates me. I spent most of my life believing I wouldn't be working in an office. The future I envisioned was one of colour and creativity as an artist. Of fiery statements and wild absence of structure.

Yet now at the age of twenty-three I have come to realise that I cannot live as an artist. It is but wishful thinking. Reality comes crashing down when you see the bills pile up and the bank statement looking dire every month.

So this is my outlet for now. Just a journal of the precious time I let my other self go. I might not log everything I do. But it will be enough to see my journey continue as an artist and begin as a violinist.

Till next time.